On commitment.

I'm at lost again on who I am. Maybe this is the consequences of coasting in life, I don't remember doing things and sticking to it, long enough to make a breakthrough, to have a realization that I have done an amazing feat. What things have I've done worthy to mention? None, yet, until I have the skills to prove it, it is just a facade. So is there anything worthy that I should commit? What about thinking about your dharma type, why not bleed on paper and give yourself to your people. My people. How can I do that? Pork. Stop them from eating pork. Or why don't you help yourself first before attending with the demands of the world.

Nu aga et, apay ta adi ka et mankankana-ey ta mayat di iyat no ya. Aw, isunga mashushudutak sin kakasinsin ko ay mantagatagalog bullshit, talaga pumatae, amok ay gago si uncle Jr tan kaman way laylaydena kadi ay taga-baba ngem baken et say pinakasalan na, ya edwani yan asi na pay itagtagalogan din aanak na! Bullshit. Sino ngen kano di.

Ya do isa abe yan din insurat ko sin FB sin pink ay kulay sinan kampo yan sasakiten aben uncle Brando et. Awan dana. Maga, apay ngen kuma ta sak-en paylang di problema? Ay baken daida? Paki-alam ko, nu makapalpasak si eskwela ta man-ubla ya mansweldo ta ipasikat ko adi abe, wada sin uneg uneg ko ay laydek ay manpasikat, laydek di pilak, laydek di babai, laydek di mayat ay beey, mayat ay makan, laydek di napipigsa ya nalalaing ay kadwa. Ngem dapat manseed ak paylang, talaga ay laydek ay manpasikat, laydek ay ibaga da ay gwapo ak, napigsa ak, nalaing ak, baknang ak. Tan tet-ewa amin di.

Betrayal.

Cement mixing and cooking.

Me and my brother was in charge for mixing cement which will be poured at the one of the beam of the house of my uncle. We mixed two batches. The first batch was estimated having a ratio of four parts river sand, four parts crushed sand, five parts gravel, two sacks of Holcim cement and three and a half parts water. The second batch consists of three parts river sand, two parts crushed sand, two parts gravel, and two parts water. Both batch produce firm and adhesive cement mix.

Digression. Last Saturday I mixed the cement used to be fed in the hollow blocks and it resulted a perfect sticky cement dough. Four parts crushed sand, four parts... shit I don't remember the details of memory! Fuck, this is what you get for not consistently writing on your journal. And what did I remind you that you should network the right people when shit hits the fan. What the fuck will you do when six armed men came at your house and just beat the shit out of you, take all your belongs, rape the women of the house, and you just limp there like shit. Boy, it's not good to be weak, it's not good to be alone, it's not good to be naive. This may happen. What the fuck will you do?

Enrol in a gym, pump iron, write everything technically, mathematically, holistically, creatively.

So what did you do today?

Okay, I will break down the events that unfold today. I was tasked to take the two sacks of Holcim cement from the trunk of the car. Also take the Gatorade "White Lightning" formulation. Approximately 500 mL dusty diluted liquid energy drink. I take it at the front seat beside the break lever. Uncle handled me the keys and when done I place it on the shelf.

As I was carrying the cement, I saw uncle Alan, Sir Principal, and Tangkad Kalbo drinking gin at Alan's backyard below.

So anything else to add? Yeah, I need to toughen my body, it's too thin, too weak, too soft, too fragile. I may as well buy coconut oil to have daily chest massage.

Any exercises in mind? Yeah, burpees, indian pushups, mace training, brisk walking, yeah, I need to strengthen my joints and ligaments and heart muscles.

Okay tama na muna ha, pigang-piga na utak ko. Baka kailangan ko munang magsulat sa wikang Tagalog. Nope.

It's time.

That's it. My fears manifest in reality. Here I am doomed to repeat another two of my subjects. And it's about time to forget all the laws and just be really really aggressive.

But before I want to think what will be this all about. I want to know how life is.

I'm torn between Christianity and Sanatana Dharma.

Timeless quality vs daily posts.

So I'll just say what's in my mind and see how it goes.

What is timeless quality? A timeless quality is a writing which can be tapped in the near future, that's it.On the other hand, the daily posts deal with the current events and is relevant to the present time.

The thing about timeless quality is it will take long before it will bear fruit but as to daily posts it should bear fruit big or small there's no guarantee, there's no consistency.

So what's the current events today? We go to City Limit to be with our cousins and play with the program.

So how does it play out?

Eh.

We are, we talk. I'm not that close to my far cousins, just not that close.

Maybe the other effect of the advent of smartphone, internet, TV, FaceBook, is it spoils the mind with all of exaggerated things in the world. It just rust the mind.

Me? I rate myself 4 out of 10 today. I'm totally zombie, my childhood enthusiasm just dies. I should sleep now, bye!

Men are the only creature that mines.

Of all the creatures God made, he let man search the deep.

I'll try to rationalize Christmas.

Okay so the thing what I remember on Christmas was when I was still a little kid and when we go to City Limit, Pucsusan, our single lolas do create games and we play they gave prices we exchange gifts. A simple get together. That's Christmas really, a visit to the city.

So I think there's no harm in a week long vacation, but here's the thing, it could be positive, a refreshing vacation, or it could sag your spirit.

So what's the plan for a successful Christmas? A successful Christmas is when you get in the door and until exit you are more richer, in friends, experience, money, knowledge, better emotional, physical and mental health, yeah, that's it, there should be gain, that's the primary benefit. Secondary would be a reduction, maybe less stress, less junk food, less hate, less burden. How about a third tier? Eh, maybe a neutral thing, nothing happened. Worst? Any adverse effect on well-being.

So how to organize a good Christmas? Basically, break it down to three days. Day 1, 23, day 2, 24, day 3, 25.

Day 1, or maybe days before Christmas, buy the supplies, gifts, food, stocks, get a haircut, wash the car, clean the house, just start fresh, focus Christmas on gain on the good things and elimination on the bad things, as simple as that. Plan the event tomorrow. Prepare the stage, the musical instruments, the sound and light system. First aid, recalibrate gadgets, cameras, phones, laptops.

Day 2 Countdown to Christmas, Christmas eve, cook, talk, invite, enemies, friends, relatives, take a good wine. Yeah man, socialize, introduce a person to another, meet your relatives. Sing by the campfire, tell stories, play, laugh, hug. Reflect on the year, what should be done more, what should be done less.

Day 3 yup program day, start with a breakfast of fruits and juices. Start a program with a prayer. Sing with the kids, throw out the money, any presentation would be nice, then parlor games, then throw again money, then lunch, afternoon, chill chill, bring on the drinks, throw the board games, release of presents, evening an evening prayer, maybe a grand march. Done! Take all the contacts, keep in touch.

Post Christmas. Slow down. Buy more fruits and juice more veggies. Look forward to New Year.

Slave mentality, humility on work bit not on dignity.

Slaves, obey your masters. (Bible)

Sino ang mas tamad, ang di mautos-utosan o ang utos ng utos.

Nu ed sina kaBenguetan gamin yan basta nu waday maubla, dapat malpas iman.

Ya wat di gapu ay sagpamingsan lang di maniibaw tan wat gumiginek din kaaduan. Nu nemnemnemem gamin di yan dakami metlang di mandedekmang isunga magay sabali metlang.

Kandana di problema nu Igorot ka, nu man baknang ka, ilam ta diskarteam ay adi en ipapaila din kinabaknang mo tan sigurado ay apalan na san kaarubam. Sinuy iyat no ngay ngarud? Alagaam et san salun-at mo ya sanan pamilyam tan sigurado ay din pamilyam metlang di tumulong en sik-a nu sin oras ay kailangam. Ipeey no metlang din pilak no sin eskwelan di anan-ak mo tan siduy di isa ay adin kaakew.

Professional's job.

What does professionals job? Generation of legal documents, papers, etc. There's  no surprise here, the system works on paper and not on practice. Goddamn game of illusion. What should be done here? Bullshit engineering. Want sample on real life? Everyone needs money. You must sell. And sell good. And here's a big slap for you in the face. Your very existence is to help people, no more no less. What's your incentive? None. That's the truth. DO you think there's something out there waiting for you? This is a tough world, for everything you want, you walk. Nothing is free. Work hard, play hard.

Don't drink alcohol.

The Greatness of Human Potential

The most

In the world of microscale, the most important, is the arrangements of each of the individual components. One arrangement gives back another output. Amazing right?

I think even absolute objects change, nothing is static, everything is water. Everything changes even though it is barely moving.

Wheel within a wheel.

Men are biologically wired to do physical labor.

God has made men to be a mule, a worker, labor, hunter, gardener, farmer, fisher.

I am being uneasy lately all because of lack of physical movement, that why gym is so important to men because it vents the steam off  'em.

Thoughts on a college campus.

It's fucking fake. A bubble of fantasy, only to be popped by the real world. A sand castle.

Well first of, if a university us built on hopes as a platform of higher thinking, nah, what is happening was, it has became a box of convenience to the administration. This is how the system works, the administration build the box, the schedule, courses, subjects, that's it. The instructors go there for an hour trade an hour of time for money from tuition. The student go there in an hour gave the tuition. After a defined years they get the degree that said I demand for higher salary.

Even the end result doesn't guarantee shit. So what's the best way to do it? Exploit, loot, and just be wealthy, cheers.

The genius of parasites.

Behaviour-altering parasites, only they can do that. A smart move controlling the mind of the host making it a slave to its own mind and body, once the parasite is in control, the host is technically dead, he is dead.

I thought parasites economize what they take from the host in order to exploit and live longer within the host, boy, I was wrong.

Parasites don't care about the well being of the host, it only cares about itself. A pure embodiment of selfishness. Considering their survival IQ is high yet they are in mercy of their biological need, to survive and to produce.

What about the other symbiotic relationships?

Commensalism, common, neutral, one benefit and the other unaffected.

Mutualism, mutual, both benefit from the relationship, in one way or the other.

Assuming all this relationship is purely economical, which relationship is the best? Well its the thing that works for you. In other words, everyone is pursuing his selfish needs and its only a change that what he needs is from you or you itself.

So I'll continue to be selfish and pursue my selfish interest. Peace.

...but you're not a parasite

Yeah, I'm just sick of seeing stupid people become kings while learned men wash the feet. But life is not about pure knowledge, it is being honest to your desires and intentions. The world is honest, nature doesn't wear veil not cast illusion, it is as it is. You're right. I should stop pretending like I'm somebody and I'll be liquid mercury and bend with the environment. This ego is now doing harm than good. I guess I'll place my pride on the backseat and let knowledge guide me through.

I learned that people need people, and yes, there's unity in diversity.

Best groups of six. Hexagon formation.

Para

When you're confused, look for numbers.

Be aware. Never blink.

How much time does it take for my overhead water tank to be filled?

1. To get started you need to know the dimensions of the tank. If you don't know measure it using steel tape or a ruler.

What is the shape of your tank? In my case it is a cylinder positioned horizontally with slight protrusion on both base. There is an added opening hole at the top.

So here are my dimensions. 15.5 inches in diameter and 66 inches long. That's all I need because what I need is to calculate the volume of the tank. The formula for determining the volume of a cylinder is pi(d^2)(h).

2. Next thing I need to know is the flow rate of the water. What I have to do is to neatly funnel up the water input and measure on an empty one liter coke bottle, clock in the time and boom I got the time in seconds per liter of water input.

When hunger strikes

I have those times when I want to satiate my hunger with much food of choice. Sometimes you just have no choice. So when is that time? When I haven't eaten a single morsel of food in eight hours straight. Boy I just want to eat! But then what's placed on the table was a generous heap of pork or dog meat or pinuneg (blood sausage). 55?:>mm¿foggy¿

Jeepney Etiquette

Respect yourself.

1. Hand exact fare as soon as your butt touch the seat.
2. Speak loud and clear.
3. You should tolerate people. This will be a daily reminder that you should buy a car.
4. Don't sleep.

The Stupidity of Jeepney Barkers

You shout all day long while passengers easily read the placard where the destination will be. Useless job. Dumb as brick.

Philippines has two faces.

I recently watched a European YouTuber filming his trip to Cebu, which is one of the richest province in the Philippines, he was amazed on how the rich flaunt their wealth --- luxury cars, mansions, designer clothes, you name it.

Well the bottom line here is the Philippines is stratified according to economic status. The top dogs are in the business, the bottom dregs are in the streets, and the middle class just fling on both sides. Ultimately, it's not about the money ball, it's about the intellect an individual, the smarter you are, the better your chances of thriving in this information age.

Stubborn people become the casualty of this change. Change is constant, deal with it.

Digression, I'm writing this post riding on a jeep and an old couple just joined in a while ago. I see that grandma is coughing and he ask granpaps a candy. Well old school remedy for cough eh.

I'll resume writing very soon, after my class.

Do not sleep Westward head point.

Damn, first time I did it, I had a bad dream my nieces are dead and now they have sisters which are exactly like them though with slight facial difference.

Well, on the bright side, my theory that after masturbating, one will not have REM sleep, since I did dream, fap it maaan!

Problem solving.

There's a hierarchy of power in problem solving.

One thing, be humble.

Okay let's start.

Level 1: self
-basic problems

Level 2: family
-if you can't solve it fast enough

Level 3: friends
-you need them

Level 4: relatives
-yup, there's the blood

Level 5: acquaintances
-need atleast friends of friends

Level 6: hire someone
-if they can solve it, pay them

Level 7: global disaster
-toughen up individual